Short Hair

I really love my short hair now.. :)

It's juts like letting me realize that I am very much beautiful.

Well, nice to know also that, it's not hurting me anymore..


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Another Tuesday

God is really good. :)

Sana, makikita ko nanaman siya kanina but tinamad ako pumasok.

See? If di ako tinamad, edi sana, nakita ko na naman siya at nahurt na naman ako..

Balik tau..

Last Saturday, wala.. Masaya na naman ako.

Kasama ko si Chris and tamang tambay lang kami sa bahay nila. :)

Honestly, masaya.. Kasi, after ng lahat ng pain, may tao na handa akong pasayahin.

Well, di sila elite but masaya silang kasama. :)

Sunday naman, super happy din kasi nakasama ko buong family ko.

Then, kinagabihan, masaya ulit ako.

Monday, di ako pumasok..

Hmm, nut, may nangyari na naman na nagpaparealize sa akin kung sino talaga ang dapat kong piliin and now, alam ko na talaga kung sino ang gusto ko.

Bukas, jamming kami ng 3 girlfriends ko with boys.. GOOD LUCK! :D

FRIDAY

Ayun.. Friday na ulit. :)


NAGKITA nanaman kami sa isang presscon. SAKIT!

But, okay lang.. Ang bitter ko nun aa. Pero, ok lang yan.. Ngayon lang yan.

I ended things. Sinauli ko na mga gamit na bingay nya sa akin para wala na.

Kaya ko to. :)

Thursday

Thursday. Ordinary day..

I woke up late..

Scolded by my boss but I feel good.

Slowly I am feeling so normal again as if nothing happens.

Got new knowledge..

While browsing my facebook account, i saw my ex's profile and i saw photos with another girl.

I felt happy coz he moved on already but a part of me felt a little pain.

As an outlet, i posted some words.. sign of bitterness.

Then, after that, i browsed again his profile and i saw comments stating that it's not her girl.

I feel like stupid but it made me smile. :)

Wednesday

Okay.. Wednesday.

Siguro isa na to sa pinaka ayaw kong araw ng buhay ko.

Bakit? Well, ayan.. Saktan na naman ako.

Ang ganda ng gising ko kanina ee.

Kaya lang, pagpunta ko sa radio statiuon.. Ayun! BOOM!

May PRESSCON daw. Haha..

Aray! Saktan na naman ako doon.

Well, sa una, super deny ako na kaya ko na wala akong care but hey.. WHOO!

Muntik na.. Muntik na ako teh mahimatay.

Pagpasok ko pa lang sa presscon, haayy.. Kita ko na agad siya.. Sakit noh? Hehe..

Ayun, wala akong magawa kundi tingnan siya.. Well, pasulyap sulyap nga lang..

Alam nyo kung bakit ako nasaktan?

Kasi, wala siyang pakialam. Sakit noh?

Weew! Multo ako teh? Multo?

Salamat na lang sa mga friends ko kanina na tinutulungan akong maging malakas kasi swear.. Umiiyak na ako kanina.

Di pa natapos yun dun.. Makuluit ako dba? Sa labas, naghintay pa ako.. Masakit dun, hmmm...

Di siya dumaan. :(





* I know i should not act that way but haaayy.. I cant help it. Nasasaktan ako. I want him back. Ni hindi ko nga alam kung bakit nya ako iniwan ee but unti unti kong tinatanggap na magiging okay din ang lahat balang araw. :(






(singing..) Someday, someone's gonna love me the way I wanted you to need me.. Someday, someone's gonna take your place.. T_T






I want that SOMEDAY now! :(

Tuesday

Slowly breathing..

The moment I sat down here, one line captured me..

Sometime you just have to hold your head up high, blink away the tears and say good-bye.

This line make me think of thousand things..

Yeah.. Maybe this line was right..

I am still thinking about him.

But i know someday.. I'll be over him T_T

Monday

It's been a week since he left.

Yesterday, I asked Almighty God to take care of all the things that are happening in me.

Before, I want to rush things and do things the way I wanted but I always end up crying and hurting.

This time, I am leaving everything to God because I know what's the best for me. For us.

Now, it's monday.. A usual day before but now it's quite different.

I am just here.. Waiting for a message that he misses me too.

But, I am not expecting.. Maybe it's really hard to start things.

I won't promise my self but I'll gonna do my best to move forward.

Last night was the best night of my life.. :(

I dreamed about him. About our situation. I was thinking that maybe God let my prayers answered in that dream.

I dreamed about us.. The US from the very start. He's taken.. He's in a relationship that's why it's so hard for him to choose but even if dreams are said to be true I feel happy.

If it is the real story, then.. I'll be happy coz before I told him that all I want for him is the happiness that I know I can never give..



It's monday.. It's still you.

Lonely Friday

I know it is so awkward to miss the person who  broke your heart badly.

But I can't help this weird feeling of missing him, looking for him and waiting for him.

I did everything I can just to forget him but ohh.. Just can't help but miss him all the time.

I feel so stupid  being left by the person whom I considered the one.. 

2 weeks seems to be so long that I am able to convince myself that he is the one whom I want to be with for the rest of my life..

Browsing his profile means a lot to me.. But I know I look so desperate waiting for him to message me again and tell me that he misses me.

Is this right? To remember him every night?

I keep on putting my feelings here in blog because I know that this is my only way to escape the pain that I am feeling..

Tomorrow is another day.. T_T

Goodbye's Not Forever

I need your love.. T_T

Goodbye’s Not Forever – Erik Santos

I never knew that our love would end this way
I thought this love could make it to forever
You said goodbye and you left me all alone
How can I live without your love
How can I carry on

CHORUS
Baby, I need your love
I wish you were here to stay
‘Cause here I am, please love me again
Bring back our hearts together

Don’t let this love of mine
Keep longing for all the time
When you and I
Can build a dream forever

I asked myself why you turned and walked away
Please tell me how so that I can make you stay
But you said goodbye and you left me all alone
How can I live without your love
How can I carry on

Forever.. forever…

Baby, I need your love

I need your love
I wish you’re here to stay

I wish you’re here to stay
‘Cause here I am, please love me again

Bring back our hearts together
But don’t let this love of mine

Keep longing for all the time
When you and I
Can build a dream forever
When you and I can share the love forever

Moving On

I thought before that moving on is just like eating a peanut.. SIMPLE.

But, 2 days ago.. It's not the way it must be.

I really woke up last Monday with a heavy feeling that I know that something might happen.

I keep on observing that day because I know I must save my feelings.. This firing feelings..

But, when sunset begins.. My darkness and pain are starting to rule over..

He's cold.. Definitely until I asked him if what's wrong..

Then, he told me everything..


I cried.. Cried.. and Cried..

Coz I know that it's the only thing I can do.


Then, another day arrived. I'm really trying to fix but he keep on pushing me away. T_T


I went to the house of an ex lover.. Then, another situation arrived..

Haist.. I felt so alone.. Really..



Then, I got home again.. Got drunk..

Cried.. Cried.. Cried... :(


Wednesday..

Still.. Crying.. Yet, I ended things..

I cut my sim card to start over.. But still, he's always on my mind.. T_T




It's already Thursday now yet.. He's still in me.


Still waiting.. Expecting.. Yet letting it all to GOD.

2 WEEKS LOVE

Hindi pa nagtatagal ng makilala ko ang tao kung saan siya ulit ang nagbigay ng dahilan sa akin para mag saulat ulit sa blog na ito na hindi na puro lyrics ng mga kanrtang naririnig ko.

Una.. Naniniwala ba kayo sa love at first sight? Well ako.. Hindi.
Pwede pa yung landi at first sight. But, iba yung nangyari.. Ibang iba sa tunay na plano.


Nung makita ko siya, wala.. Usual, tao. Pero, comfortable akong kasama siya. Dun naiba.

Sa dalawang linggo, nahulog ako. Di sinasadya.


Pero, eto.. Umiiyak habang naalala ang matatamis na kahapon.

Hindi na siya akin. T_T