Short Hair

I really love my short hair now.. :)

It's juts like letting me realize that I am very much beautiful.

Well, nice to know also that, it's not hurting me anymore..


(^_____________________^)

Another Tuesday

God is really good. :)

Sana, makikita ko nanaman siya kanina but tinamad ako pumasok.

See? If di ako tinamad, edi sana, nakita ko na naman siya at nahurt na naman ako..

Balik tau..

Last Saturday, wala.. Masaya na naman ako.

Kasama ko si Chris and tamang tambay lang kami sa bahay nila. :)

Honestly, masaya.. Kasi, after ng lahat ng pain, may tao na handa akong pasayahin.

Well, di sila elite but masaya silang kasama. :)

Sunday naman, super happy din kasi nakasama ko buong family ko.

Then, kinagabihan, masaya ulit ako.

Monday, di ako pumasok..

Hmm, nut, may nangyari na naman na nagpaparealize sa akin kung sino talaga ang dapat kong piliin and now, alam ko na talaga kung sino ang gusto ko.

Bukas, jamming kami ng 3 girlfriends ko with boys.. GOOD LUCK! :D

FRIDAY

Ayun.. Friday na ulit. :)


NAGKITA nanaman kami sa isang presscon. SAKIT!

But, okay lang.. Ang bitter ko nun aa. Pero, ok lang yan.. Ngayon lang yan.

I ended things. Sinauli ko na mga gamit na bingay nya sa akin para wala na.

Kaya ko to. :)

Thursday

Thursday. Ordinary day..

I woke up late..

Scolded by my boss but I feel good.

Slowly I am feeling so normal again as if nothing happens.

Got new knowledge..

While browsing my facebook account, i saw my ex's profile and i saw photos with another girl.

I felt happy coz he moved on already but a part of me felt a little pain.

As an outlet, i posted some words.. sign of bitterness.

Then, after that, i browsed again his profile and i saw comments stating that it's not her girl.

I feel like stupid but it made me smile. :)

Wednesday

Okay.. Wednesday.

Siguro isa na to sa pinaka ayaw kong araw ng buhay ko.

Bakit? Well, ayan.. Saktan na naman ako.

Ang ganda ng gising ko kanina ee.

Kaya lang, pagpunta ko sa radio statiuon.. Ayun! BOOM!

May PRESSCON daw. Haha..

Aray! Saktan na naman ako doon.

Well, sa una, super deny ako na kaya ko na wala akong care but hey.. WHOO!

Muntik na.. Muntik na ako teh mahimatay.

Pagpasok ko pa lang sa presscon, haayy.. Kita ko na agad siya.. Sakit noh? Hehe..

Ayun, wala akong magawa kundi tingnan siya.. Well, pasulyap sulyap nga lang..

Alam nyo kung bakit ako nasaktan?

Kasi, wala siyang pakialam. Sakit noh?

Weew! Multo ako teh? Multo?

Salamat na lang sa mga friends ko kanina na tinutulungan akong maging malakas kasi swear.. Umiiyak na ako kanina.

Di pa natapos yun dun.. Makuluit ako dba? Sa labas, naghintay pa ako.. Masakit dun, hmmm...

Di siya dumaan. :(





* I know i should not act that way but haaayy.. I cant help it. Nasasaktan ako. I want him back. Ni hindi ko nga alam kung bakit nya ako iniwan ee but unti unti kong tinatanggap na magiging okay din ang lahat balang araw. :(






(singing..) Someday, someone's gonna love me the way I wanted you to need me.. Someday, someone's gonna take your place.. T_T






I want that SOMEDAY now! :(

Tuesday

Slowly breathing..

The moment I sat down here, one line captured me..

Sometime you just have to hold your head up high, blink away the tears and say good-bye.

This line make me think of thousand things..

Yeah.. Maybe this line was right..

I am still thinking about him.

But i know someday.. I'll be over him T_T

Monday

It's been a week since he left.

Yesterday, I asked Almighty God to take care of all the things that are happening in me.

Before, I want to rush things and do things the way I wanted but I always end up crying and hurting.

This time, I am leaving everything to God because I know what's the best for me. For us.

Now, it's monday.. A usual day before but now it's quite different.

I am just here.. Waiting for a message that he misses me too.

But, I am not expecting.. Maybe it's really hard to start things.

I won't promise my self but I'll gonna do my best to move forward.

Last night was the best night of my life.. :(

I dreamed about him. About our situation. I was thinking that maybe God let my prayers answered in that dream.

I dreamed about us.. The US from the very start. He's taken.. He's in a relationship that's why it's so hard for him to choose but even if dreams are said to be true I feel happy.

If it is the real story, then.. I'll be happy coz before I told him that all I want for him is the happiness that I know I can never give..



It's monday.. It's still you.

Lonely Friday

I know it is so awkward to miss the person who  broke your heart badly.

But I can't help this weird feeling of missing him, looking for him and waiting for him.

I did everything I can just to forget him but ohh.. Just can't help but miss him all the time.

I feel so stupid  being left by the person whom I considered the one.. 

2 weeks seems to be so long that I am able to convince myself that he is the one whom I want to be with for the rest of my life..

Browsing his profile means a lot to me.. But I know I look so desperate waiting for him to message me again and tell me that he misses me.

Is this right? To remember him every night?

I keep on putting my feelings here in blog because I know that this is my only way to escape the pain that I am feeling..

Tomorrow is another day.. T_T

Goodbye's Not Forever

I need your love.. T_T

Goodbye’s Not Forever – Erik Santos

I never knew that our love would end this way
I thought this love could make it to forever
You said goodbye and you left me all alone
How can I live without your love
How can I carry on

CHORUS
Baby, I need your love
I wish you were here to stay
‘Cause here I am, please love me again
Bring back our hearts together

Don’t let this love of mine
Keep longing for all the time
When you and I
Can build a dream forever

I asked myself why you turned and walked away
Please tell me how so that I can make you stay
But you said goodbye and you left me all alone
How can I live without your love
How can I carry on

Forever.. forever…

Baby, I need your love

I need your love
I wish you’re here to stay

I wish you’re here to stay
‘Cause here I am, please love me again

Bring back our hearts together
But don’t let this love of mine

Keep longing for all the time
When you and I
Can build a dream forever
When you and I can share the love forever

Moving On

I thought before that moving on is just like eating a peanut.. SIMPLE.

But, 2 days ago.. It's not the way it must be.

I really woke up last Monday with a heavy feeling that I know that something might happen.

I keep on observing that day because I know I must save my feelings.. This firing feelings..

But, when sunset begins.. My darkness and pain are starting to rule over..

He's cold.. Definitely until I asked him if what's wrong..

Then, he told me everything..


I cried.. Cried.. and Cried..

Coz I know that it's the only thing I can do.


Then, another day arrived. I'm really trying to fix but he keep on pushing me away. T_T


I went to the house of an ex lover.. Then, another situation arrived..

Haist.. I felt so alone.. Really..



Then, I got home again.. Got drunk..

Cried.. Cried.. Cried... :(


Wednesday..

Still.. Crying.. Yet, I ended things..

I cut my sim card to start over.. But still, he's always on my mind.. T_T




It's already Thursday now yet.. He's still in me.


Still waiting.. Expecting.. Yet letting it all to GOD.

2 WEEKS LOVE

Hindi pa nagtatagal ng makilala ko ang tao kung saan siya ulit ang nagbigay ng dahilan sa akin para mag saulat ulit sa blog na ito na hindi na puro lyrics ng mga kanrtang naririnig ko.

Una.. Naniniwala ba kayo sa love at first sight? Well ako.. Hindi.
Pwede pa yung landi at first sight. But, iba yung nangyari.. Ibang iba sa tunay na plano.


Nung makita ko siya, wala.. Usual, tao. Pero, comfortable akong kasama siya. Dun naiba.

Sa dalawang linggo, nahulog ako. Di sinasadya.


Pero, eto.. Umiiyak habang naalala ang matatamis na kahapon.

Hindi na siya akin. T_T

FAR AWAY

Far Away – Nickelback


This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there’s just one left
‘Cause you know,
you know, you know

[CHORUS]
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you’ll be with me
and you’ll never go
Stop breathing if
I don’t see you anymore

On my knees, I’ll ask
Last chance for one last dance
‘Cause with you, I’d withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I’d give it all
I’d give for us
Give anything but I won’t give up
‘Cause you know,
you know, you know

[CHORUS]

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
‘Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
‘Cause I’m not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
‘Cause I’m not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go

5 words

I’ll Be There For You – Bon Jovi

I guess this time you’re really leaving
I heard your suitcase say goodbye
Well as my broken heart lies bleeding
You say true love, it’s suicide

You say you’ve cried a thousand rivers
And now you’re swimming for the shore
You left me drowning in my tears
And you won’t save me anymore

I pray to God you’ll give me one more chance, girl

I’ll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I’ll be there for you
I’d live and I’d die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can’t say what a love can do
I’ll be there for you

I know you know we’re had some good times
Now they have their own hiding place
I can’t promise you tomorrow
But I can’t buy back yesterday

And Baby you know my hands are dirty
But I wanted to be your valentine
I’ll be the water when you get thirsty, baby
When you get drunk, I’ll be the wine

I’ll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I’ll be there for you
I’d live and I’d die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can’t say what a love can do
I’ll be there for you

Solo

And I wasn’t there when you were happy
I wasn’t there when you were down
I didn’t mean to miss your birthday, baby
I wish I’d seen you blow those candles out

I’ll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I’ll be there for you
I’d live and I’d die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can’t say what a love can do
I’ll be there for you

I can't feel you anymore.. :(

Chest to chest
Nose to nose
Palm to palm
We were always just that close
Wrist to wrist
Toe to toe
Lips that felt just like the inside of a rose
So how come when I reach out my finger
It feels like more than distance between us

In this California king bed
We’re ten thousand miles apart
I been california wishing on these stars
For your heart for me
My Californa king

Eye to eye
Cheek to cheek
Side by side
You were sleeping next to me
—oohhh next to me
Arm in arm
Dusk to dawn
With the curtains drawn
And a little last night on these sheets
So how come when I reach out my fingers
It seems like more than distance between us

In this California king bed
We’re ten thousand miles apart
I been California wishing on the stars
For your heart for me
My Californa King

Just when I felt like giving up on us
You turned around and gave me one last touch
That made everything feel better
And even then my eyes got wetter
So confused, when I asked you if you love me
But I don’t wanna seem so weak
Maybe I’ve been California dreaming

In this california king bed
We’re ten thousand miles apart
I bet California wishing on these stars
For your heart for me
My Californa King
My California King

In this california king bed
We’re ten thousand miles apart
I been California wishing on these stars
For your heart for me
My California King

SMILE. (^________^)

Ngiti – Shamrock

nalalabuan ka nahihirapan ka at nag aapoy ang damdamin

di maintindihan hindi rinmaiwasan ang naglalaro sa isi
wag kang mag alala hindi nauubos ang pag asa

chorus:

sana naman ngumiti lagi nalang gusot ang iyong mga labi
sana naman ngumiti wag kang matakot na harapin ang buhay natin

wag mong hayaan na ikaw ay mawalan ng pagmamahal sa sarili
ba’t di mo lang tawanan maayos din yan ako ay nasa iyong tabi

bukas lilipas na lahat ng bagay ay may dahilan

repeat chorus

tama na namamaga na ang iyong mata
punasan ang luha sa iyong magandang mukha

repeat chorus(2x)

sana naman sana naman ngumiti
sana naman sana naman ngumiti

Reality Bites. :(

Connie Sumner (Lane) and Edward Sumner (Gere) are a couple who live in suburban New York City. Their marriage is solid and loving but lacking passion. One day, Connie journeys into the city, where she is caught in a windstorm. As she seeks a taxi, she bumps into a stranger (Martinez). They both fall and Connie scrapes her knees. The stranger offers to let her use his apartment to clean up. At that moment, an empty cab goes by, but Connie accepts the offer instead of heading back to the train station. The stranger introduces himself as Paul Martel, a Frenchman who buys and sells used books. When Martel makes small advances toward her, Connie becomes uncomfortable and decides to leave . He lets her go but gives her a book of Persian poetry, Rubaiyat of Omar Khayyam as a gift.

Later that night, Connie mentions the incident to her husband. The next morning, after Edward and their son Charlie (Sullivan) leave, she picks up the poetry book. Paul's business card falls out. She takes the train into the city again and calls him from Grand Central Station. He invites her over for coffee. He makes her coffee and shows her how to read a book in braille. But when Paul begins caressing her hands, Connie decides to leave. Later that night, Connie seems distracted, obviously thinking about Paul. The next morning she shows up at his door. When Connie enters Paul's apartment, he asks her to dance. She obliges and they begin flirting with each other. As the record they are dancing to begins to skip, she decides that what they are doing is a mistake. Paul tells her, "There is no such thing as a mistake. There is what you do and what you don't do." Connie replies, "I can't do this," and starts to leave the building. But when she has to come back into the apartment for her coat, Paul grabs her and kisses her and then they engage in intercourse.

Connie and Paul begin a passionate sexual affair. Edward soon suspects something when his wife increases the frequency of her visits to Manhattan. She uses her work on a charity event as an excuse, but Edward finds holes in her stories when he speaks with mutual friends. She shows less interest in him, i.e., removing her wedding ring to wash the dishes. Eventually, one of Edward's business partners catches a glimpse of Connie and Paul fawning over each other in a cafe and tells Edward, who hires a detective (Chianese) to follow Connie. On a day when Edward was out of town, Connie and Paul enjoyed time in a movie theatre, leading her to forget to pick up her son from the school. The detective returns with pictures of Connie and Paul, which devastate Edward.

Connie sees Paul with another woman and attacks him, but he denies that the woman is special. She is enraged and they begin to fight in his building, but their anger turns into passion . Edward decides to visit Paul's apartment but leaves when unable to enter, and misses seeing Connie leave. He returns moments later, gets in and confronts Paul. Already upset, he is stunned to see a snow globe there, which he recognizes as his own gift to Connie. Paul says that Connie bought it for him as a gift, and Edward hits the other man with the globe and kills him. Edward cleans up the blood, wipes away his fingerprints and wraps Paul's body in a rug. As he works, the phone rings, and Edward hears Connie leaving a message that she must end the affair. Edward erases the message and leaves, putting the body in his car's trunk. Later that night, he drops it off at a dump.

Two police detectives arrive at the Sumner home. They explain that Paul's wife had reported him missing and they had found Connie's phone number in his apartment. She claims to have met him only once. A week later, the detectives return and tell Connie that they found Paul's body. She becomes upset while repeating her earlier story; Edward backs her up and adds that he never met Paul. Later that night, collecting Edward's clothes for the dry cleaner's, Connie finds the private detective's photos and realizes that Edward knows about the affair. She concludes that he murdered Paul after noticing the snow globe has been returned to their home. Underneath the globe, she discovers a hidden compartment containing a photograph of her, Edward and Charlie, with an anniversary message from Edward, which causes Connie to cry.

Edward and Connie confront each other. She burns the photographs; he offers to turn himself in. Connie rejects this and insists they will get through the crisis together. Later the couple are shown in their car stopped at an intersection, debating their next move; outside, the traffic lights change several times from red to green and back. The camera pulls back to reveal their car in front of a police station.

Underneath Your Clothes - (I really find it hard to memorize :( )

Underneath Your Clothes – Shakira

You’re a song
Written by the hands of god
Don’t get me wrong cause
This might sound to you a bit odd
But you own the place
Where all my thoughts go hiding
And right under your clothes
Is where I find them

Underneath Your Clothes
There’s an endless story
There’s the man I chose
There’s my territory
And all the things I deserve
For being such a good girl honey

Because of you
I forgot the smart ways to lie
Because of you
I’m running out of reasons to cry
When the friends are gone
When the party’s over
We will still belong to each other

Underneath Your Clothes
There’s an endless story
There’s the man I chose
There’s my territory
And all the things I deserve
For being such a good girl honey

I love you more than all that’s on the planet
Movin’ talkin’ walkin’ breathing
You know it’s true
Oh baby it’s so funny
You almost don’t believe it
As every voice is hanging from the silence
Lamps are hanging from the ceiling
Like a lady tied to her manners
I’m tied up to this feeling

Underneath Your Clothes
There’s an endless story
There’s the man I chose
There’s my territory
And all the things I deserve
For being such a good girl honey

Maging Sino Ka Man – Erik Santos Lyrics & Listen ( My Wish Wedding Song..)

Maging Sino Ka Man – Erik Santos Lyrics & Listen

Ang pag-ibig ay sadyang ganyan

Tiwala sa isa’t isa’y kailangan

Dati mong pag-ibig wala akong pakialam

Basta’t mahal kita kailan pa man

Huwag kang mag-isip ng ano pa man

Mga paliwanag mo’y di na kailangan

At kahit ano pa ang iyong nakaraan

Mamahalin kita maging sino ka man

Mahal kita pagka’t mahal kita

Iniisip nila ay hindi mahalaga

Mahal kita maging sino ka man

Mali man ang ikaw ay ibigin ko

Ako’y isang bulag na umiibig sa `yo

At kahit ano pa ang iyong nakaraan

Mamahalin kita maging sino ka man

Mahal kita pagka’t mahal kita

Iniisip nila ay hindi mahalaga

Mahal kita maging sino ka man

Mahal kita maging sino ka man

12:51 (reminds me of YOU)

Lyrics of 12:51 – Krissy and Ericka

Scrolling through my cellphone
For the twentieth time today
Reading the text you sent me again
Though I memorized anyway

It was an afternoon in December
When it reminded you of the day
When we bumped into each other
But you didn’t say hi cause I looked away

And maybe that was the
Biggest mistake of my life
And maybe I have not moved on
Since that night

Cause its 12:51
And I thought my feelings were gone
But I’m lying on my bed thinking of you again
And the moon shines so bright
But I gotta dry these tears tonight
Cause you’re moving on
And I’m not that strong to hold on
any longer
ho woa ohhh
ho woa ohhh

when I saw you’re with her
didn’t think you find another
and my world just seems to crash
I shouldn’t have thought that this would last
And maybe that was the biggest of mistake my life
And maybe I have not moved on since last night

Cause its 12:51
And I thought my feelings were gone
But I’m lying on my bed thinking of you again
And the moon shines so bright
But I gotta dry these tears tonight
Cause you’re moving on
And I’m not that strong to hold on
any longer

As the sky outside gets brighter
And my eyes begin to tire
I’m slowly drowning and memories of him
And I know it shouldn’t matter
As my hearts begin to shatter
I’m left to wonder
Just how it should have been yeah…

12:51
And I thought my feelings were gone
But I’m lying on my bed thinking of you again
And the moon shines so bright
But I gotta dry these tears tonight
Cause you’re moving on
And I’m not that strong to hold on
Cause I’ll prove you wrong
That I can move on through this ong
So much stronger ho whoa…
Ho whoa oh whoa…
Ho whoa

What is LOVE? Page 2

I'm back..

Honestly, sa mga sinabi ko kanina, wala pang sagot sa tanong ko if anu talaga ang pagmamahal.

Well, ituloy na natin.. I know you are a bit excited na kasi..

Hindi ko pa nasasama yung LOVE na nararamdaman ng bawat nilalalang na binigyan ng puso.

LOVE for SOMEONE. Actually, masyado yang broad.. Kaya, iisa isahin ko.

         LOVE NA HINDI MO MASABI - Sa ganitong cases ka, dito na nakakasama yung mga pagmamahal na hindi naiipaparamdam.. Mga salita na hindi naibibigkas. Bakit? Kc, tameme ka pag anjan na siya o di kaya, mas nauunahan ka ng dga sa dibdib mo at pag minalas malas ka pa, uurong dila mo. Hindi ba? Eh paano kung last chance mo na pla? Eh di kawawa ka. But, ako.. Di ako naniniwala sa last last chance yan. Ksi, para sa akin,ung chances, patuloy yan ee. Hanggang gumigising ka pa sa umaga, may pag asa pa.But, sa mga taong hindi pa nakakapag express ng mga nararamdaman nila, SABIHIN nyo na habang maaga pa. Ang pangit naman kasi na tatanda ka na hindi mo nasabi na mahal mo pala sya. Eh, paano kung mahal ka rin nya?

Dba? Ganun yun ee. Kung hndi ka gusto, then.. Hayaan mo na.. Wag mo nang ipagpilitan pa. Dba? Ang mahalaga naman, nsabi mo yung tunay mong nararamdaman sa kanya.

                LOVE SA TAONG HINDI MO PA NAKIKITA. - Okay, others may think that this is crazy. Well, nangyayari 'to. May kilala ako na ganito but sad to say hindi ganun kaganda ang naging ending. But, kung nakaka experience ka ng ganito, i lesses mo lang ng konti ang expectations dba? Bakit? Kc, for sure, technologies lang naman ang namamagitan sa inyo. Hindi naman lahat ng tao ee nagsasabi ng totoo but, di ko naman nilalahat. I'm just concerned. But, if someday, palarin talaga na magkita kayo, mas maganda.. Atleast.. RELASYON nalang ang aayusin nyo.






                A LOVE THAT IS TOO MUCH. - YEAH! Eto na yun ee.. Dba? LOVING TOO MUCH.

Ooops. Di naman ako bitter, natututo lang ako. Dati din kasi akong ganito dati pero sa tingin ko, a part of me, ganun pa din ako. Alam mo yun, pag nagmahala talaga ako sobra.. Sobra sobra.. DEFINE SOBRA? Yung sobra na pati magulang natin ee nagagawan na nating suwayin dahil nga sa sobra na yun.Yung sobra na parang mababaliw ka pag di sya magpakita, di sya magtext. SOBRA na talaga yun. PEro,wala tayong magagawa, ee mahal natin..Dba? Ang masasabi ko lang, we are too young para sa SOBRA. Baka kasi pag dumating na yung para sa atin, wala na tayong maibigay kasi naibigay na natin sa nauna. Magiging unfair tayo, dba? Kung mahal ka talaga ng taong mahal mo..Hindi nya hahayaan na mahalin mo siya ng sobra.

Sabi nga ni TAY Ko (fiance ko).. Wag mong angkinin ang tao, mahalin mo lang.

Loving too much is owning them.. It's just like putting astringon his/her neck para lang masabi mo na sayo siya at di pwedeng mapunta sa iba. Tao lang din cla. May freedom. At hindi rason na angkinin mo sila dahil mahal mo siya.

Para sa akin, yung LOVE, yun na yung dumating na sa punto na kayamo na siyangmawala. Yun naang pagmamahal doon. Pag kaya mo na siyang mawala sa'yo kasi alam mo na mas magiging masaya siya sa piling ng iba.

Love is letting go..

What is LOVE?

Ayan.. Heto nanaman po tayo, LOVE.
Anu nga ba ang LOVE?

Actually bloggers, maraming definition ang LOVE ee.

Pero ngayon, sasabihin ko lanag ay ang mga bagay na alam ko about sa salitang yan.


LOVE? Apat na letra na kayang guluhin ang buhay ng isang tao.


Simulan natin..

LOVE of GOD. - Alam naman nating lahat na siya lang ang may kakayahan na magmahal ng wagas. Hindi ba? Ginawa niya ang lahat para iligtas tayong lahat. Wala nang makakatalo dun.

LOVE of our Parents. - Una pa lang, andito tayo sa mundong ito dahil sa mga magulang natin. Isipin mo nalanag kung anong hirap ang pinagdaanan nila para lang ma
buhay tayong masigla. Ngunit anong ginagawa natin? Nagagalita tayo sa kanila. Hindi ba? tayo pa ang may ganang magalit. Guys, hindi lang natin alam kung gaano tayo kamahal ng mha magulang natin. KAsi tayo, kapag napapagalitan tayo, ang unang iniisip natin ay nag paniniwala natin na di nila tayo mahal but come'on, kahit ata nung bata tayo, inexplain na sa atin ng mga teachers natin na pinapagalitan tayo kc mahal tayo ng mga magulang natin. Yes, alam ko na iniisip niyo na  madami naman na paraan para sabihan tayo but let us consider that our parents are also getting old. Hindi ba? If may problema naman tayo regarding ng favoritism, anu ba kayo, hindi totoo yun. Pag hndi kayo paborito just keep in your mind that you are grown enough kaya hindi ka na nila pinapamper. If mahigpit naman sila sa mga bf/gf natin, natural yun kc ayaw naman nila na mapunta tayo sa hnid magandang landas.

Para naman sa mga wala ng parents, pray for them. Kahit wala sila Physically, Spiritually, andyan sila para sa inyo.

Sa mga broken families na tulad ko, be strong paras a sarili antin at paara sa naiwan..

Kung wala na ang mama o papa niyo, anjan pa naman ata ang naiwan na si mama o si papa. Hindi ba?

In my case kasi, si mom ko nlanag yung andito para sa akin. Kaya i'm doing my best para sa kanya, para sa amin. Hindi rin ako naging rebelde kasi wala naman maidudulot yun. Instead, inaayos ko ang sarili ko para sa hinaharap.

Para sa tatay ko, SALAMAT lang nag pwede kong maibigay sa kanya. Kasi, kung wala sya, wala din ako sa mundong ito. At, kung hndi rin dahil sa ginwa nya, i will not be strong. By the way, wag na natin pag usapan yan.



Sa mga may poot o galit o tampo o anu mang emosyon meron kayo para sa mga parents nyo, give them a hug, yan nag the best solution sa mga matagal nyo nang tinatanong. Believe me, effective yun. Then after hugging them, you should also ask for forgiveness and try to forgive them if nasaktan man kayo nila sa kahit anong paraan. Lahat ng bagay maayos kung gugustuhin.. Sa edad natin, sabi ng ni JOYCE na friend ko, BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND nlang ang inaaway ngayon. Hehe.. :D


Next.. LOVE of a BROTHER/SISTER: Hmm.. Tanggap ko ang katotohanan na hindi nmana tlaga lahat ng magkakapatid ay magkakasundo. Swerte mo nalang if magkasundo kayo but please kahit ganun kayo kagalit sakanila, sana wag na lang maalis yung respeto. Hndi ba? And.. Try to fix it up if kaya pa, but if hnid na.. Pray for it..



LOVE of FRIEND/S: Well, medyo broad ang topic na ito. Ang Friend kasi, is a million things. Well, love your friends kasi, sila lang yung maiiwan pag iniwan ka ng pinaglalaban mong pag-ibig.


Sa 3 taon ko sa college, ang dami kong natutunan if friendship lang nmaan ang pag - uusapan. Doon ko narealize na nag gogrow din pala ang friendship i thought kasi ganun lang yun. Well, dumaan ako sa stage na talagang nakikipag plastikan din ako.. Normal yun, but lately, i realized na hindi na siya essential since tumatanda na ako. In the end kasi ng journey mo,  doon mo na makikita if sino o sino sino ang mag sstay sa tabi mo kahit hndi nman sa lahat ng oras ay mabait ka. Hndi ba?

So, love your friends.. Sila ang treasures ng buhay natin.




~ ~ ~ itutuloy... ~ ~ ~

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Napagtanto ko na hindiko na dapat pang tapusin ang kwewntong ito.
Dahil sa napakaraming bagay na gumugulosa isip ko.

Sa ngayon, alam ko nna kung sino ang pinili ng puso ko.

Para kay N, sana ako'y iyong patawarin dahil hd\indi ko talaga kayangmabuhay sa kamalian.



------ Wakas ------

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Buong akala ko si N ang nahulog pero nagkamali ako..

Habang tumatagal, nahuhulog na din ang loob ko sa kanya.


Lagi nalang akong kumakanta ng..


Baby.. Now that i found you i won't let you go..




Ayun! In love nanaman ako. Tsk. And dali lang noh?

Ganun na nga ang nangyari.. Madalas nakaming magtxt. Night Shift sya noon sa isang content online services.
Kahit sa work super magkatxt kaming dalawa.Pati ako di na rin makatulog dahil nga sa katxt ko siya.

Hanggang one time, sinabi niya sa akin na magkita daw kammi but the feeeling is really mutual pero hindi ako nagpapahalata kasi nga dba.. may.. alam mo na. Pero, sadyang mapaglaro ang tadhana at need kongpumunta sa school para mag enroll para matapos na ang clearance ko.

Ayun, tnxt ko siya.Nagkita kami for the second time around.

Pero ngayon, hindi na katulad ng dati.. May tinginan na.. ngitian... in short, mayroon nang malanding ugnayan.
TAKE NOTE: MALANDING UGNAYAN.

Medyo gabi nakc nung time na yun.
Nagsnack kami sa Dunkin.Busog pa ako nun kaya nag juice nlang ako.

Tinititigan nya ako as if wala nang bukas. Well, mula noon, natandaan ko na ang mga gestures niya at ito ang mga sumusunod:


*pag blink ng mata niya in every 16 seconds
*pag tingin nya sa ground for alost 10 second (depende din sa trip nya)
*pag move ng leeg niya sideways
*pag close niya ng hands as if he's praying
*pag pinch ng nose niya
*pag ayos niya ng buhok nya




See? di ko nga akalain na vigilant na pala ako ngayon.



But before that, review muna tayo..



Victoria: May gf ka na ba?
N: Kailangan ba?


chu chu chu..

Hanggang sa..


Victoria: Gusto mo, ireto kita sa friend ko?
N: Bakit? Wag na. May GF na ako. Ipakilala ko sayopag nag kita tayo.



(?____?  ) aahh ok. may gf pala.


Vic: (pretending na ok lang..) Ahh.. OK. sure




Balik tayo..






Vic: Tara na.. Uwi na tayo. May pasok ka pa.
N: Teka lang.. Ayaw mo bang makilala si Girlfriend?
Vic: Ahh.. Wag na..
N: Mabait yun.. tapos, kilala mo siya..
Vic: Wag na.. Ok lang.. Next time nlang.
N: Kaw bahala..



Palabas na sa Mall (MAULAN)
Tumigil muna kami para hintayin na tumila ang ulan.
Nung tumila na.. Drive na kami.

Tapos..Umulan nanaman.


Punta muna kami saterminal para sumilong. Nilalamig na ako noon ng sobra.
Guess what happened?

Pinahiram niya jacket niya. Ayieeee! (*_________________*)



(itutuloy...)

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Sa bahay nila Cassandra, tinanong ako ni Samantha kung BET ko daw si N. Well, ako naman.. Siyempre, sasabihin ko hindi..At that time naman kasi..Wala pa akong anraramdaman na ganun ka intense na feelings.

But, medyo nairita lang ako ng kaunti nang inutusan na niya akona tanungin ko si N if may ctush ito sa kanya..

Guess if anu reply ni N?

"Hindi naman sya yung tinitingnan ko ee. Ikaw! Sayo kasi ako interesado.."

Oh? San ka pa ngayon?

Malamang.. Tao lang ako, kinilig ako. Hehehe (*____________*)


Ganyan, ganyan na ganyan nagspark yung mata ko. Nakakaloka diba?

Pauwi na ako nun. Sinabi ko sknya na pauwi na ako at medyo nangangati na ako dahil allergy ako dun sa ininom namin. Hindi ko alam kung anung tawag dun ee.. Bsta, meron itong halong the barr, gatorade, sprite.. at ewan.. Bsta, kulay blue sya, msarap siya. :)



Katxt ko nga sya that night at.. super sweeet niya. (*__*)

Sabi niya.. Ingat daw ako at yung mga remiders na ang tagal ng panahon bago ko narinig ulit. :)



Few days later.. Bakasyon na.

Umuwi na ako sa aming bayan. Natural, wala nanaman akong magawa.. Super GM ulit ako.
Ewan ko ba if anu yung pumasok sa utak ko para tanungin ko lahat ng lalaki sa inbox ko if pwede na akong magpalit ng number na iba ang nertwork at.. nadaanan siya doon. May mga nagreply naman.. May ayaw, may ok lang.. Pero, guess if anu sinabi nya? Eto..


"Bakit ako ang tinatanong mo? Hindi mo naman ako boyfriend.."


Ouch teh! TAGOS teh? Nagpapalambing lang naman ako ee.

Syempre, ayaw ko mapahiya.. Sabi ko,

"Ikaw nalang.. Kahit kunyari lang..."


Ayun! kumagat si N.Ilang oras ang nakalipas.. Tinatawag na niya akong GIRLFRIEND.


(*_______*)




(itutuloy..)

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Bago ang lahat..

Anu ang pagakakaiba ni N kay E?

*E

Si E, he's an engineer, rakista, occational lang ang pagiging sweet niya but then, kinikilig naman ako kapag sweet siya but there is really something about him na hindi ko maintndhan.. O baka sadyang, ako langang problema. Dba?

*N

Si N, total opposite ni E. Swear. Si N, super sweet.. I can still remember how things started. (*__*)

Tagged. Yan. Yan ang may kasalanan kung bakit ganito na ako ngayo. Hiningi nya number ko then after weeks or month, he texted me..And swear, IM NOT INTERESTED. 

Pero see? Hmm..  KARMA lang! Dba?

After weeks of texting (hindi ko nga din maconsider na txt2 kc.. nananadtad lang ako ng quotes everyday.) One night, nag GM ako, malamang.. Nasendan siya.

He replied..

"May namimiss din ako.."

Yun na.. Then, pasweet na siya.. but, hindi ganun ka consistent ang sweetness niya.

October 15, Late celebration ni Cassandra, timing.. inampon ko si Samantha that time thenhabang nagreready na kami, i got a txt message from N.

"Can i give you a ride?"

-I'm with friend..

"It's ok"

-Ok.. wait for me @ _____________

-I'm wearing Orange

"I'm with a white motorcycle"

Habang papalapit na ako sakanya. my heart is beating so fast.. (o_____________o)

Then, i approached him. He gave us a ride..

Habang nakasakay kami sa likod niya, naaamoy ko siya..

and.. and... i remember that scent! 

-2 years ago-

RAINY

Sumakay ako sa tricy.. Sa likod ako ng driver. Eh punuan, need kong maghntay.

cge... cge.. hintay. hanggang may sumakay na.

I love the smell. :)

I fell in love with the perfume.

Take Note: Bumili akong ganung scent

Bakit? Syempre..Gusto ko nga yung amoy dba?

at..

I'm wishing na makatabi ko ulit yung lalaki na may dala ng pabango na yun.

Hanggang lumipas naang isang taon nahindi ko sya nakatabi kaya nagpalit na ako ng pabango para mag move-on.

Balik na tayo.

Oh EMMM!

Alam kong amoy to.. (I feel so pissed/happy? Ewan..Mixed Emotions)

Then, yun nga.. Bumaba na kami.. I held his hand.. But, i noticed something.. 

Before letting go of my hand, hinigpitan nya hawak niya. But, hmmm. Inaalis ko na sa isip ko yung malisya.

Then, nag separate na kami.

(itutuloy..)

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Tingnan mo nga naman ang buhay..
Ultimong pagbayad sa jeep..


Sa School

(Nag-aaral ako sa isang University dito sa probeinsya namin.. Hindi kamai mayaman kaya't sa Public School lang ako nag enroll pero nung highschool ako, sa private school ako. Okay naman na andito ako sa school na to. Since, kilala na din ang school na ito, sabi nila ay nagpoproduce din daw ito ng mga globally competitive na students. Maraming maganda, marami ding hindi. Patas lang kasi sa iskwelahan na ito. Liberal ika nga..)


Nakita ko si Friend ko, si Samantha..

(Si Samantha, medyo chubby din pero sinasabi nya na mas payat daw siya sa akin. Ok naman siya, mataray, SK Chairman kasi siya ng barangay nila.. Pero, yan si teh, taon taon yan kung magmahal. :) after 5 years, niloko na at lahat.. Bumabalik pa din sya kay 1 great love nya..)

Samantha: Hoy TABA! (Woohhh.. Kung makalait, payat ka teh? Payat?)

Vic: Kung maka TABA ka anaman bhe.. PAYAT ka? Siya nga pla.. San si Cassandra??

Samantha: Wala pa nga ee.. Nag JERJER pa ata.


(JERJER - secret term naming tatlo.. :))


Parating na si Cassandra

(Si Cassandra.. Siya ang Ms. Consistent sa aming tatlo.. Pag may bf sya, yun lang talaga.. Kahita patayin pa siya, keri lang.. Mahal niya ee. Hindi siya chubby pero malapit na din humabol sa aming 2 ni Samantha..)



Cassandra: Oh? Kanina pa kayo?

Vic: Hindi naman.. Tara Kain tayo.

Samantha: Tara!


Yan ang buhay namin.. Sino nga naman ang hndi tataba sa sistema na yan.. Dba? Ako naman? Playgirl ako. Tsk! Kung maka playgirl ako, WAGAS. di ba? Hmm.. Well, it's not my fault anyway.. Sa entire life ko naman, may minahal din ako ng sobra.. Una, si X. X kc ang start ng name niya.. Well, ako din naman ang may kasalanan ng break up na yun dahil may nakalandian ako na si B. Isa syang weird. Literal. 9 months lang yun tapos wala na.. Madami din dumatin.. May J, EA.. Ang dami.. Pero, wala nanaman seryoso. Isipin mo, pati kapitbahay namin, naging jowa ko. Si O, wala na din yun.. Lumagay na sa tahimik.

Pag college ko, of course, naglandi pa din ako.. Si M, isa din sya sa dahilan kung bakit lalong di na ako nagseryoso.Iniwan alang ako bgla after all.. Pagkatapos naman nun, nagkabalikan kami ni X, but.. Naghiwalay din kami dahil may A..Si A naman, ewan.. Di ko magets.. Kaya, Habang may A, nagkaroon ng H.. See? Ang dami. Ang gulo2 na. Hmmm.. To think na wala pa jan yung mga txtm8s ko. :) then, iniwanan ko yun si H and A dahil.. Meron nang E.. Masaya na sana kami ni E.. But, my temptation.. Si N.Well, saka na.. May dumagdag pang C, R at kung cnu cnu pa.. Pero, nahihirapan ako.. Si N ba? o si E?




(to be continued..)

Ang Kwento ng Matabang Prinsesa

Ang Matabang Prinsesa

Mahirap maging mataba..
Lahat ng tao laging titingin sayo lalo na pag kainan.
Kahit di ka naman malakas kumain, ikaw pa din ang titingnan.

Sa mall, madami kang gusto..
Pantalon, damit, dress..
But, sad to say, kailangan mo ng extra large na sizes.
Pag sinwerte ka, maeron ka..
Pag wala, hanggang tingin ka na lang.

Mahirap din talaga maging mataba..
Pati crush mo, halos maluwa luwa sayo.






Ako nga pala si Victoria, ang MATABA.
They call me VICKY, VIC, BEK oh kung anu anu pa na gusto nilang itawag sa akin.


Off to school..




Sa jeep..


Vic: Manong, bayad po. Kuya, paabot naman po.
(si kuya, halos walang marinig..)


Inabot ko nalang yung bayad kay manong driver.



Maya maya, may sumakay.. SEXY. MAPUTI. MUKHANG MAYAMAN.


Maganda: Kuya, bayad po.

(Si kuya na hindi umiimik kanina ay maaga pa sa alas dose kung makaabot ng bayad.. )




See the difference?


(to be continued..)